I just really don't understand. If I am doing everything right, and upholding my end of the bargain, then why aren't I being blessed with what I have been promised? Why do I have to go through all of this pain and emotional trauma? Why me? After waiting, and waiting, and waiting only to be disappointed many times while watching my friends lap me two and three times over, when will it be my turn? How much longer do I have to wait?